I’ve always carried around a few extra pounds since I was a kid. It’s hard not to when you grow up in a Puerto Rican household and most of your meals constitute of rice, beans, potatoes with your choice of beef, chicken or pork. Vegetables at least non starchy ones were not around much not that I would have been inclined to eat them. I grew up being quite a picky eater as a result. The one good thing about this is that all of the food was fresh no preservatives, no artificial flavors and no hard to name additives.
Graduating high school and starting college opened a whole new world of opportunities and experiences. The freedom to choose my own path in this world was amazing and dangerous at the same time. I became care free and indulged in everything little did I know that my metabolism would eventually slow down. Of course choosing a career as a software developer ridding a desk wasn’t going to have a great impact in my overall fitness.
If we move forward a few years to the year 2001 I had found my groove and was getting ready to wrap up my college career I was looking forward to finding and starting my career as a software developer. I was working at a printing company as an administrator. The job consisted mostly of sitting at a desk paying bills, collecting payments and pushing paperwork around. This would be the year that would set my life in a bit of a tailspin.
I’m your conventional run of the mill introvert who often has a hard time interacting with others but one day all of that changed. I met this cute girl that was hired as a temp she an I hit it off pretty fast. She made me feel special. Soon enough we were going out to dinner and spending more and more time together. I was addicted to the way I felt when I was with her I hadn’t felt that way for a long time. I started to slack off at school, my friendships and other responsibilities started to feel like a burden. I didn’t know how to have balance in my life I just wanted to be with her all the time.
As relationships go it was great but all that changed about a year later. There was some friction with my family and this started to cause a rift between us. I had never experienced this type of stress in my life. I wanted things to workout but somethings are just not meant to be. I started to eat lots of junk food to comfort myself. But looking back at it I think that my inability to deal with my feelings and the situation lead me down this self destructive path. I think that the added weight also became a metaphorical shield to protect me. But my weight eventually became yet another factor that lead to the eventual dissolution of my relationship.
As you can imagine my self esteem was pretty much gone and the only thread I had to hang onto was my career as a software developer. I buried myself in my work 18 hours a day was the norm. I didn’t cook so all of my meals came from either fast food places or delivery. It was here that I hid for nearly 11 years. I lost my father during this time. He was diagnosed with two types cancer (Multiple Myeloma & Prostate Cancer). The greatest man ever was taken away from me I felt lost and alone once again. As you can imagine I found myself falling down this endless pit of despair. Food became my medicine which eventually lead me to weigh 438 lbs (Nov 2013).