Weekly Update #23

Current Weight is 232.4 lbs
Previous Weight was 232.6 lbs

I lost 0.2 lbs this week I was aiming for 1.45 lbs. I worked out 6 days last week and burned an average of 3633 (In the interest of clarity 2341/day as estimated by workout equipment. The other 1292/day are from FitBit which causes the number to be skewed on account that some of these calories have been accounted for by the workout equipment) calories per day in exercise. Consumed an average of 1700 – 2000 calories per day.

Not sure if I'm hungry or depressed.

This past week was a bit of a struggle for me. I managed to stick to 80% of my nutrition plan but the other 20% was driven by emotional eating. Emotional eating is something that has been difficult to overcome. Using food as a source of comfort is part of the thing that got me to weight 438 lbs. I tend to be a very guarded person because of past experiences as a result it is very difficult for me to open up to others. Last week I reached out to someone whom I’d known in a causal way for a few months and it resulted in polite rejection. The situation immediately put a pit in my stomach. Feelings of anxiety and depression often drive me to food for refuge. It was no different this week since I did allow myself to indulge in less than ideal foods. As can be expected the food did not take away the feelings. I was feeling sad and confused.

One of the positive psychological benefits of systematic exercise is the development of a sense of personal mastery and positive self–regard, which we believe is likely to play some role in the depression–reducing effects of exercise. —James Clear

My emotional eating was not totally out of control thanks to the healthy habits I have developed over the last year. The thing that helped the most as it turns out was throwing myself into harder and longer workouts. At first I felt as if I was dragging thru a tar pit because of how I was feeling emotionally. Eventually that pit in my stomach went away and was replaced with pride and an increase in my self worth. I had come to the conclusion that I was hinging my self worth on what other people thought of me and the feeling of rejection. This is something that I need to work on as I continue to move ahead thru this journey. I feel frustrated with the fact that I seem to keep needing to learn this lesson over and over but I’m hoping that by documenting it here I will leave a formal reminder to myself.

Goal for this week is to consume no more than 1653 calories per day. Burn an average of 1486 calories per day in exercise over 6 day period. Weight loss goal is to lose 1.42 lbs.

6 Comments Weekly Update #23

  1. Rick

    The reason you’re not seeing the loss in weight you are hoping for is that you are mis-using your fitbit in association with LoseIt.com calculations. You seem to be logging twice as many calories burned than you are actually burning. I quote –

    I lost 0.2 lbs this week I was aiming for 1.45 lbs. I worked out 6 days last week and burned an average of 3633 calories per day in exercise. Consumed an average of 1700 – 2000 calories per day.

    How can you possibly not lose a significant amount of weight when you are burning twice as many calories as you are consuming? Be honest with your logging…log the fitbit or LoseIt not both. I know a LoseIt participant that runs the equal of a Half Marathon (13 miles) twice a week in addition to his daily runs of 6 miles, yet on those days he runs 13 miles his Lose it calculation only comes to half of what you log doing 1 1/2 hours on the treadmill. I can appreciate the effort you are putting into developing a healthy lifestyle…just suggesting you be honest with yourself.

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    1. David Negron

      I appreciate your feedback Rick. I agree with your assessment regarding the fact that the Fitbit is skewing my exercise calories as displayed in LoseIt. However I do not count on that number when it comes to determining how many calories to take in during the day. I use a separate spreadsheet for that on account that the Fitbit is unable to measure calories burned due to the intensity of the workout it simply generates an estimate based on steps taken.

      As for being honest regarding my logging you are 100% correct. The food in which I consume during my emotional eating periods have not been logged. Which is why what you see in Lose It wont be an accurate representation of my reality. If I were to log those it would be evident to all that I have been consuming far to many calories. Worse yet unhealthy calories made up of mostly sugar and processed carbohydrates. Sadly when I am participating in emotional eating the last thing in my mind is to properly account for them in LoseIt.

      But the point of this blog post is to simply share my experiences for myself any anyone who is interested in reading about them. The accuracy of my tracking my calories/exercise on Lose It has very little to do with any of this. Regardless of how or if I tracked correctly does not matter all that matters is the fact that I struggled and that is what I’m interested in sharing.

      I’ve successfully lost over 200 lbs. Losing weight is not the issue its all of the other stuff that surrounds this process that will ultimately determine my long term success. If anything I’ve managed to prove that you cannot out train a poor diet.

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  2. Sandra

    Hi David,

    Thanks for sharing again. Well-done on a number of counts – 1) sharing, 2) keeping relative control of the emotional eating, 3) exercising-exercising-exercising 4) recognizing what is going on and being able to do something about it, i.e. picking yourself back up again and moving forward and finally 5) being so brave!

    Learning the lesson that you are the best measure of your worth, rather than measuring yourself by what other people think, is something that I believe most people, including myself, have to remember and relearn on a regular basis. Shrug that one right off.

    David, I am so very proud of you for reaching out to that person, even if your offer was politely declined. WOW! You did something you wouldn’t have even considered thinking about a year ago – you asked someone out – this is HUGE! Yes, even polite rejection stings a little. But remember, you are no worse off than you were before you asked. And to my mind, you are actually better! You demonstrated confidence and courage and that is something you will build on.

    As you develop interests that bring you in contact with like-minded people (this takes active effort – so keep on getting out there!), you will find more opportunity to find someone to share time with – that may be romantic but it may also be good friends, which ain’t bad!

    And remember, it takes asking out a lot of frogs before one finally says yes. This is true for pretty much EVERYONE. So keep being brave and keep asking different people. When you know your worth and act on it, others will see it too. And when that yes comes, don’t stress too much about it. You may or may not end up clicking with that person, but you’ll have that experience too!

    Your journey and success in all areas of your life has been phenomenal. And even in the face of this, you still managed to lose .2 pounds. Pretty outstanding, my friend.

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  3. Marnie

    So sorry to hear of your loss. You and your family have my herleftat sympathy. Your uncle sounds like he was a real stand-up guy.My best,Ding

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